The chillins finally came home last night. I missed them very much, and now I am back on my non-sleep schedule. I feel much better. Today is filled with going to the store and getting ready for our trip tomorrow. TEXAS! You have no idea how excited I am 🙂 We lived there for only 10 months, but it became my permanent home in my heart. I love my friends there and can’t wait to see them. Trust me, this part of Texas isn’t that great. It’s the armpit of TX basically, but no matter where you are in life, it’s people that matter the most, not the place. Well, it’s 5 hours from here to my sister’s house in TN and then 12 hours from there to where we are going. With the chillins, not so sure on time, but I’m sure we will have lots of fun.
I’ve been talking to my dad again lately, and it’s been really good. Without going into a lot of detail, a lot of things have happened to my family in the past 2 years that haven’t been the greatest. My parents got divorced, my dad is seeing someone else, and well…having a baby. It’s a boy. It was quite hard to take at first, but I’m over it. When I wasn’t over it, I didn’t talk to my dad for months. No Happy Thanksgiving, no Merry Christmas, no Happy Birthday….nothing. Sounds harsh right? I was very angry at the situation, at him, at her. I had to realize that it’s not my life. I think I realized that a long time ago, but I just wanted to stay angry, to stay not talking to him and think that it was ok. That I was going to be ok without him in life. I think of my husband and how he would feel if our kids didn’t have him in their lives and how sad he would be. I had to quit being selfish. Don’t get me wrong, there are still trust issues, but things like what we have been through takes time to really get over.
What if something happened to him and there were unresolved issues? What if this? What if that? Lots of things to consider when you decide to not have someone as important as your parents. I love my kids, my little monsters and would hate to not have them in my life. So this Valentine’s Day, I will make sure to say more I love yous. Give lots of hugs and kisses. Play more. You know…all that good stuff.
Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone!
I will try to blog when I’m on my vaca and let you know how awesome it’s going.