Day 8 Fix

Well, today is the beginning of the 2nd week of the 21 Day Fix. I can definitely see a difference in my body. I feel better as far as my normal energy is concerned. I say it that way b/c I’m stuck inside all day, everyday b/c it’s cold outside. I HATE the cold! Even in the forties, it’s too cold out. Not feeling up to par today either. I don’t feel sick or anything, just blah. That’s all. I did have my shakeology this morning and did my workout, but even that didn’t seem to help. I think maybe today is one of those days. I didn’t sleep very good last night either. I use a Smart Alarm app on my phone and my sleep was only at 56%. Not very good at all. I felt like I was up most of the night. Ok, maybe not up, but awake. I had a dream that I was my age but back in high school. I didn’t what class I supposed to be in and when I finally got to where I was supposed to be, I didn’t know what the heck the teacher was teaching. I asked for a book, but she wouldn’t give it to me. I hate dreams about going back to high school. Anyway…I think that I’m just exhausted and may just have to get my yoga on today to center me a bit. I feel a bit off. That’s what it is.

My husband is a little concerned with my weight loss and maybe that is a contributing factor. This I weighed myself at 104.4 lbs. Not good at all. I’m way under weight. I just weighed in again at 106.2 lbs. Weird, but I did just have lunch. Turkey with lettuce and a bit of cheese on a thin whole grain bun. I know that may be cheating a little from the diet that I have been on for the past week, but I need carbs and protein.

As far as my workout went this morning, I felt really good about it. I tried my hardest to keep up with the 5 lb. weights. I would switch in the middle to the 3 lb. weights when it got too much for my arms, but I kept up with the weight. Gonna get stronger! That’s my goal. I didn’t stop which is awesome for me. GO ME! Even if I did modify in the middle of an exercise. I didn’t modify every exercise. My favorite? Actually my favorite is the surrenders. The very first exercise. Autumn says that it’s the hardest for that workout, but I really like that. I love engaging my leg muscles. It’s my arms that gives me the hardest time.

My shakeology this morning was delicious as was yesterdays. Today was Nutty Butter which consisted of milk, walnuts, peanut butter, half of a banana and shakeology. Super yummy. I could drink that all day long. yesterday was vanilla almond which consisted of unsweetened vanilla almond milk, almond butter and vanilla shakeology. When I saw the price of it, I didn’t think that I could afford to drink it every month. Now that I have tried it, I love it and want to keep it in my daily diet, that’s for sure. Anyway…I know it’s short today, but until tomorrow all!

Day 6 & 7 Fix

I did not post yesterday, my apologies. I was out most of the day and by the time I got home, got all of my stuff put away, my exercises and dinner thought of, the husband came home and wanted to burn trash and then wanted to eat. So this post is for yesterday and today.

Yesterday, I had to go out of town and it so happens that where I had to go to, there was a Target in town. I LOVE Target. Living an hour or more from civilization, I take the opportunity for target shopping when I can. I bought a resistance band thinking that I might like it better than my weight. Wrong. I used a couple of times during the workout, but I switched back to my weights. My fix was supposed to be Dirty 30 but since I did that at the beginning of the week, I did the Upper Fix instead. Oh man, do I need to do that more often. I loved working out my arms. After that, I think I may double up some days so I can work my arms more. It was tough especially since I don’t have that much strength in my arms. I want to get up to using 5 & 8 lb. weights. That’s my goal right now. That may not seem like a lot to most people, but it’s a lot for me! I broiled salmon for dinner and had the leftover stir fry veggies. It was delicious. Gonna have to get more of that to eat. I loved it more than I thought I would. Who knew eating so healthy could taste so delicious? Anyway…Still working on the 10 minute abs. I try so hard to not stop, but it hurts so bad. I know the only way to get stronger is to push through, but when you can’t breathe, it’s a little difficult. I love the burn, hate the hurt. I was hoping that by the end of this week, I was going to be able to go the whole 10 minutes without stopping, but I’m not quite there yet. I have to modify just to keep myself moving.

Today is a yoga fix. I’m pretty excited b/c I love yoga, but I think I may double up on something else. I’m trying to build muscle here. I started the week out at 108.8 lbs. Now? I’m at 105.2 lbs. I know that I’m losing fat lbs. at least I’m pretty sure that I am, but I really don’t want to lose any more weight than necessary. I’m 5’2” so I’m not skin and bones, but I am small. According to the BMI charts, I’m actually under weight. My ideal weight for my height is 122 lbs! I need to gain 17 lbs of muscle! Wow! How in the world do I that with only 1200-1500 calorie diet? My cousin (who is a beachbody coach) is helping me, but I’m up for any other advice and help. I don’t want to just take supplements to help. I love food and want to eat, but I want to eat the right stuff. Well, I need to get to my yoga fix today and some lunch. Until tomorrow!

Day 5 Fix

Well, it’s getting close to the end of the first week, and I’m still going! Going as strong as the beginning as the first 3 days? Not really. Now don’t get me wrong. I’m sticking to the diet and workout plan. I have not faltered with the fix plan. But the first 3 days, I was done with the majority of my day by 11. That’s breakfast, workout, shakeology and planning my lunch and dinner. Yesterday I really started to feel the munchies come one, but today…oh man! Today, I just want a single little piece of a kit kat or just couple of peanut butter m&m’s. I’m trying to be the strongest person that I can be, but this going cold turkey stuff is hard. I know that it’s for a healthier life, a fitter life, a happier life. I will not eat that cookie! I will not eat that candy! If I give in now, what’s the point of going on? I mean really. The first time you give into something that you are wanting to give up, you are opening up the flood gates of not changing. If you want change, you have to make it happen, no matter what. 

After I finally had my shakeology for the day, the cravings did go away. I feel so refreshed and ready to get going on just cleaning my house. I did my cardio fix today. That was tough. I am not very good when it comes to weights and all I have are 3 lb and 5 lb weights! I’m such a sissy! I kept going even if that meant doing the modified version. BTW…I did the whole body cardio fix that I was supposed to do at the beginning of the week. I started the wrong DVD, but got back on track. So tomorrow instead of the Dirty 30 (again), I’m gonna do the upper fix. 

Anyway…I’m getting stronger! Physically and mentally. 2 more days until the start of the 2nd week. 2 more days of my making my body stronger! Here’s to tomorrow!

Day 4 Fix

I LOVE PILATES! Today was pilates fix, and I feel great! It was great to have a cool down after 3 days of “harder” workouts. I needed the break, but that doesn’t mean that I’m gonna slack on my abs fix! That is an everyday fix as long as I’m getting my life turned around. The only problem I have with doing pilates at home is that I don’t have anyone here to help me with my form and making sure that I’m doing it correctly. Any exercise done wrong can end in disaster, but when it comes to yoga and pilates, form is everything. That is the only way you are going to work your muscles correctly and effectively. If I had never done pilates before, I would be a total wreck. 

I think that yesterday messed me up though. I’m supposed to eat throughout the day, but I haven’t been hungry…At least not for a meal. I’m in the munching mood. So what did I do today? I baked! Yep! You heard me correctly. When you are basically going cold turkey from the occasional chocolate chip cookie, after a few days, the sweet tooth really tries to take over. I made the banana oatmeal cookies from my meal plan book, and they are delicious! I was expecting them to be ok, but not wonderful! Nothing that healthy can be that good if it comes in the form of a cookie can it? Usually that stuff tastes like cardboard, but not these. Here’s the recipe: 

  • 1 cup Old fashioned rolled oatsImage
  • 2 tsp. ground cinnamon
  • 1/4 tsp sea salt
  • 2 ripe bananas, mashed
  • 1/4 cup golden raisins
  • 1/4 cup chopped raw walnuts

Preheat oven to 350. Lightly coat baking sheet with spray. Set aside. Combine oats, cinnamon, and salt in a medium bowl; mix well. Add bananas, raisins and walnuts; mix well. Drop be heaping Tbsp. onto baking sheet. Flatten cookies. Bake for 14-15 minutes or until firm.

They don’t take very long to make at all! I made them while on the phone with a very good friend. Actually started and finished them while on the phone! Ok, so we were on the phone for like 2 1/2 hours, but it didn’t take me that long to make them. Thinking about doing my 10 minutes abs early today. I wanted for the husband to do them with me last night, but even after I started with him in the room, he didn’t join. SLACKER! Ok, I guess I can’t be too upset with him. I think that he tore a tendon in his foot, and he is coming home from 12 hour work days. He is very tired and working out right now is not on his list of priorities. Well…until tomorrow!

 

Day 3 Fix

Well, today was an interesting day for us. From 9am to 1pm, we were in a power outage, so I took the kids out today. We didn’t get back til about 4 so that means that my fix took an interesting turn. Yes, it’s only day 3, but even for just 2 days, I have kept very faithful to my diet and workout routine. I usually eat my breakfast then do my workout and have my shakeology all before 11, and that sets me for the rest of my day. But today was a different story. I started out with a banana and my shakeology drink this morning and left the house before 9. I was bound and determined to NOT go through a drive thru. It’s true that our world has evolved concerning some food choices you get through fast food places, but there still is the temptation of eating just that one french fry. I succeeded! We did, however, go to Chili’s. The menu is little more forgiving when it comes to yummy food choices. I tried to choose as wisely as I could to what sounded good to my taste buds. This is the part where I learned why portion control is so so so important. Now don’t think that I over ate. I didn’t do that at all, but even after 2 days of complete portion control, my little less than normal was almost too much. I say little less b/c usually when I go out, an appetizer is involved along with my meal even if I don’t finish all of either. I had the California grilled chicken flat bread with avocado and pica de gallo. The indulgence here? The cheese. ImageEverything was in portion except for the cheese, and my body still feels full from todays lunch. I wasn’t miserable by no means, but I could feel what portion control was doing for my body more than I thought I would. I will say, that is something that I could make. It was delicious, and I didn’t have that “Oh my gosh I shouldn’t have eaten that” feeling I would have had if I still ate burgers and fries.

We went to the mall and as we were walking, I can feel every muscle in body screaming at me! I’ve got to keep pushing. I got more comfy and workout clothes. That’s always fun b/c that’s about all I wear since I don’t go anywhere fancy anyway. I’d much rather be comfortable.

I got more items from the it’s ok to eat this list. That includes ingredients to make the treats that are in the meal plan book. My sweet tooth just about got the best of me last night. I love my pb m&ms and I really wanted some last night, but I refrained. I was then determined to make myself some treats. Target didn’t have all the ingredient that I wanted but I did find this little gem while in the “big city”. I’m gonna have to make another trip there again before leave Kansas. I went in and it smelled like Trader Joe’s, and that is one thing that I miss about California. The kids were getting a little restless so I didn’t get to look around. That made me a little sad but oh wellImage.

The first thing I did when I got home was do my workout. Oh my goodness! It was so hard. My legs were already screaming from yesterdays workout. Side note…I did not the wrong workout. Dirty 30 wasn’t supposed to be until I think Saturday. I was supposed to do the Upper Fix yesterday so I will be switching that around. Anyway. I can’t hardly walk now, but I’m still going to my 10 minute abs. My abs hurt when I sneeze, but it won’t be like that forever. Right? RIGHT? I sure hope not. I’m not gaining muscle yet, but I guess I shouldn’t expect a miracle over night. I am happy to say that my splurge didn’t make me gain any weight. I don’t want to lose anymore weight though. I don’t really know what to do about that. An extra shake maybe? I don’t know. Until tomorrow!

Day 2 Fix

I woke up this morning to a very achy body. I did my 10 minute abs last night before bed, and it was tough. Tougher than expected? No not really. I’m way out of shape so my husband was on the couch motivating me. He asked what the end result was supposed to be after the 21 days. I showed him a picture and he gave me the “that’s not gonna happen in 21 days” look. Then he proceeds to tell me that if I get in shape the way I’m supposed to after 21 days, he will do the program…twice…So, now I have been challenged, twice. The first time from me and just to finish the program, and now secondly from the husband. Oh boy…at this point I would have already told myself that I am setting myself up to fail, but I have a plan! I’m stickin to it! And I’m gonna feel awesome afterwards! Who’s with me?? 

This was good in a hurtful kind of way. It’s Tuesday which means Dirty 30 Day. What is Dirty 30? 30 minutes of weights and exercise. Have I mentioned that I am out of shape. I tried to push, I really did. I only have 5 lbs weights. I’m picking 30 lb children up all day, why do I have a hard time with 5 lb weights!? By the end, they felt like 10 lb weights! I ate a good breakfast first so there was no nauseas feeling, but oh my! My body…I’m really feeling it today. I can’t quit now though…oh no no no…Gotta keep pushing. Why?

Because I was just interrupted to get the kids a snack. They wanted vanilla wafers. Usually I would take just one cookie. Not bad right? No, not really…but 1 turns into 2 which turns into more and there goes my workout for the day. It’s only DAY 2! It shouldn’t be this hard! I drank my shakeology and I still want a snack. By the way…It was delicious today. Orange Creme. 1/2 c orange juice 1/2 c vanilla unsweetened almond milk and my shakeology. I can’t wait to get the ice tray back in the fridge so I can make my shakes a little thicker…Anyway…here’s to the rest of the day!

Day 1 Fix

Well, it’s only 11, and the majority of my day is already done. I didn’t get up as early as I wanted but it wasn’t so bad. I got up a little after, got my shower in, kids got up, made myself my breakfast of oatmeal, 2 hard boiled eggs and apples and worked out all before my shows came on! yeah! I’m gonna have to figure out how to make my breakfast taste better that’s for sure. I couldn’t even finish my oatmeal.  I put cinnamon in it, but that didn’t help. I think I may have cheated a bit with my eggs. I put a little bit of sea salt on them, but in my defense, I didn’t put as much as I usually do. I salted one time, and that’s it. I waited until my food settled before I got into the workout portion of my day. I must say, I was quite pleased! I have tried several times to do a Jillian Michaels workout and fail every time. After 10 minutes, I’m done! This workout was tough, don’t get me wrong, but I was able to get through it. I stopped a few times, but my body isn’t quite ready for the full body workout yet. I sweated, I was breathing heavy, but I feel awesome. My least favorite part? The burpees! I hate burpees with a passion. I’m not very good at them. And to do them for a full minute? yeah…well, that didn’t happen…today, but it will happen eventually. I have 3 weeks to get there!

Now for my Shakeology…I drink the vanilla latte. A cup of coffee, almond milk and honey and of course the shakeology. It wasn’t awful, but not gonna go on my favorite go to drink list. I tried it today b/c I missed having my morning coffee. I’m not sure how well I will fair without my coffee with cream so I may just have to go on a coffee fast. So anyway…Don’t know what the next 3 weeks has in store for me, but I can’t wait to start feeling great and looking even better. I’m excited about having more energy and maybe a little more motivation in my life. ImageStay tuned for more updates. It’s only Day 1 of the 21 Day Fix so no struggles yet.

Here’s to a New Start

I’ve been absent for quite a while. I’m not sure what the reason…nothing to blog about, life is pretty uneventful to say the least, whatever it is, blogging has taken a back seat for almost 2 years. Here’s I am…again…and gonna give it another try. We moved again back in May out of sunny CA to pretty dull KS. Ugh! Not much fun so far. Living in the middle of nowhere, having to drive a distance just to go get groceries is not my idea of fun. I’ve been trying to enjoy my kids more b/c they really are little only once, and it won’t be long before they are grown and in school, having friends of their own, not wanting to be home, etc…I’ve been trying to keep my spiritual self fed. I started the Proverb a day at the beginning of this month. And something else…I am getting ready to start 21 Day Fix by BeachBody, and I am stoked to say the least. I miss the gym. I miss feeling good. I miss feeling good about myself. I miss the nice weather to go out for a run whenever I want. Did I mention that I miss the gym? 🙂 Anyway…21 Day Fix is a 3 week program to slim down, get toned, feel good and just in general change my lifestyle.

I have already changed the way I eat to a point. No more drive thru burgers and fries (makes me sick even thinking about it) cutting out the caffeine (with the exception of my morning coffee) No more soda! Eating more fruits and veggies and no more buying chips and dip. I messed my tummy up one night eating too much. I’m tired of fluctuating weight. I want to be strong and fit. I don’t want to be 108 lbs. of little and skinny, I want to be 115 lbs of muscle, strong and toned. No more small belly pudge, yes to sit-ups. No more jiggly butt, yes to jump squats and lunges!. I’m gonna do it! I really am. (Now don’t look at me like that! I really am!)

I will struggle. I will struggle at first. When I start a workout on DVD, usually I’m done in the first 10 minutes. Why you ask? I haven’t worked in almost 9 months! I get tired and no one is here to kick my butt and say get up and keep going! It’s so easy to just turn the tv off. It really is. Just try it…ha! just kidding…anyway…I get bored also. I know it’s just 30 minutes, but 30 minutes seems like an hour when you’re huffing and puffing and your muscles hurt and you just can’t go any further! Then you realize, THAT WAS JUST THE WARM UP! ya feel me?

What else will be a struggle? Cookies! Bread! more cookies! so….I really like to bake. Cookies, banana but bread, coffee cake, etc. I love my sweets. My major downfall…peanut butter m&m’s. I LOVE them! I really do. That is my go to candy. I have the munchies…I have a big bag of PB m&m’s. I don’t eat a lot at a time, just enough to satisfy my craving. Oh yeah, and breakfast food that includes strudels and the rare poptart. Fried eggs and toast with butter. Pancakes, french toast with butter and syrup…need I go on? I love food! That’s why a meal plan is so important for me and not only that, but to follow it. That’s gonna be my biggest struggle, not gonna lie.

Something I want to accomplish? Getting up before my kids and getting my workout, shower and breakfast in before the kids wake up. What will that require of me? Going to bed early. Getting my lazy, tired butt out of bed in the morning when my alarm goes off. Figuring out what to put in my stomach before my workout. I tried to workout on an empty stomach one time, yeah…almost made myself sick. Not a good thing.

So why the journey? Why do this all when I am already small to start out with? Well, Every year, I am getting older. I’m so close to 30 I can taste it! I want to always keep up with my kids…heck, I want to outrun my kids! I want to always be able to go out and play with them and when co-ed softball leagues come up, I’m ready! When zombies attack, I’m ready to run! HAHAHA! Who’s gonna help me? Who’s gonna be by my side during this journey for support?

I’ve kind of already started and my legs have been hurting for 3 days! I got a new app by Nike. I haven’t been able to finish the workouts yet, but my legs feel like jelly just after 8 minutes! I’m almost there! The workouts are only 15 minutes. I can do it. My husband said that he was proud of me for trying. Heck, I may just inspire him. Well, I’m out for now…Can’t wait to get pictures up to show my progress! So excited!

The Better Me Project

There are days that I feel very lazy and don’t want to do a thing, and then there are days that I feel very productive and get so much done that I don’t know how I did it all in one day. Unfortunately, the lazy days come too often and the productive days…well, you get where I am going with that. I want to be a better person. A better mother. A better wife. A better, well…everything. It’s hard to get things done with 2 kids running around the house taking everything out that you just cleaned up or making messes where you just vacuumed. It gets frustrating and almost makes me not want to try to some point because it’s just going to get messy again. I strive to have the house cleaned, laundry done and dinner finished by the time hubby comes home from work, but it doesn’t always work out that way. He’s a good sport about it just as long as I pay attention to the kids and make sure that they are learning something new everyday or getting outside to play. I am not a perfect mother and neglect that sometimes, but that is because my brain is sometimes in cleaning mode, and I feel that I need to get everything done. The reality of it all though, I CAN stop what I am doing because it won’t go anywhere, and I can get it done later. That mode is hard for me to turn off sometimes.

Today, I was sitting on the couch with my daughter (who is almost 3), and I was loving on her. I told her that I was going to eat her toes. She started laughing and said “no mommy, my toes not food. That food.” I kept persisting just to make her laugh, and kept saying that her toes weren’t food. Too cute, right? Kids say the funniest things. After that, I started doing laundry, but I wanted her help and she wanted to play with her puzzles. She wanted me to play so I made a deal. She helped me with laundry, and I would play with puzzles. She was very happy to help as long as mommy played with her. I don’t want to miss anymore moments like that ever. I know that with life, it will happen, but I am going to try my hardest to be the best mommy that I can be for my babies.

If you would have known me a few years back, you would ask me what changed me because I am definitely not the same person I was even just a couple years ago. I didn’t cook. I hardly cleaned. I didn’t craft. I wasn’t creative whatsoever. Let’s just say, I was not motivated to really be anything special. I was just plain boring. Well, lately, that just hasn’t settled with me. I got on Food Network and started looking up recipes and things that looked yummy. I got addicted to Pinterest (like everyone else). I used my sewing machine so much that it crapped out on me last week. I love to crochet at night before I go to bed. I sell on etsy. I clean just about everyday. I look for things to make my household more organized…etc…In fact, the next project that I am going to start very soon is building my own furniture. I can’t ever seem to find furniture that I really like, just stuff that I could live with and then eventually sell or throw out. I want pieces that I can be proud of keep forever. The Handbuilt Home by Ana White is where I got the idea that I can do things like that from. She has easy to understand instructions and an appeal to her designs. If my first build comes out as awesome as I think that it will, I think that I am going to get her book. :)I want to learn now what I can teach my kids later in life. I want them to learn how to be respectful and polite. Calling elders ma’am and sir or just anyone. I want them to know how to manage money and be creative. I want them to want to learn. To have a passion for something. To love and to live. To be like their daddy and to WANT to be like him.

Their daddy is a wonderful man and a loving husband. I am better at being a mother, I can be better at being a wife. If I can be a better wife, I can be a better me. I don’t want to lose ME in all the other titles that I have. I want to be somebody and touch someone with my story. My past. My present and my future. I do not boast in the things that I have done lately because without my God, I couldn’t have, wouldn’t have started or done anything that I have. He is the One who has given me the creativity and the want to be better and make things beautiful. He has given me the mind to start these things. Because trust me, I am not who I was years ago. I am better already and the journey to a better life has just started.

I hope to inspire so stick with me 🙂