Day 9 Fix

So it’s either getting easier or I’m getting stronger! My body isn’t hurting like it was at the beginning of last week. I’m seeing a difference, especially in the way my clothes look. I feel even better. I say that, and I still want to take a nap in the middle of the day. Maybe I’m just not active enough in general. I feel great in the morning after my breakfast and workout, but now…yes now I want to nap. Can I? Nope. There are 2 little people that won’t let me. Anyway…Since I didn’t sleep well the night before, I thought that I would try something a little different. I put on the yoga Fix. As soon as I did though, I realized that I hadn’t done my 10 minutes abs. Therefore, I did THAT first. I didn’t want to skip it now when I’m almost able to get through the whole 10 minutes without stopping! So I did yoga after I put the kids to bed and during, Ky got up and sat on her daddy’s lap while I tried to relax. The only problem with that? She would not stop talking! My little girl does not stop until she is actually asleep. She started out in a whisper and got louder and louder. I told her daddy that it was time to put her to bed! I felt super relaxed afterwards. We watched a little bit of a movie, and I fell asleep almost right away and SLEPT ALL NIGHT LONG! I felt so awesome waking up this morning.

Today was another Upper Fix and guess what!?! I used my 5 lb. weights almost the whole time!. Know what that means? I need to go get myself some 8 lb. weights soon. That is very exciting for me. I had to switch between my lighter and heavier weights by the 2nd round when I felt my arms almost falling off. Great isn’t it? I had shakeology. I basically had to choke it down b/c I don’t want to waste. I did the Vanilla Nog again. I thought that I liked it more than I did today. Not my favorite. I think it’s b/c of the Run extract, so I think that I will stick to something more Vanilla-y.

My coaches have told me that I need to up my calorie intake since I have been losing too much weight. I have been sticking to my meal plan pretty well. I may sneak a yogurt in there every once in a while, but def. not a lot. Here’s why…When you buy food that expires, you have to eat it, as long as it isn’t all bad for you. I haven’t had any cookies or candy for over a week now, and I feel alright. My tastebuds will get over it. I have been holding strong. In fact, I crave more fruits now than before which is great. That and peanut butter πŸ˜‰ Until tomorrow all!

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Day 8 Fix

Well, today is the beginning of the 2nd week of the 21 Day Fix. I can definitely see a difference in my body. I feel better as far as my normal energy is concerned. I say it that way b/c I’m stuck inside all day, everyday b/c it’s cold outside. I HATE the cold! Even in the forties, it’s too cold out. Not feeling up to par today either. I don’t feel sick or anything, just blah. That’s all. I did have my shakeology this morning and did my workout, but even that didn’t seem to help. I think maybe today is one of those days. I didn’t sleep very good last night either. I use a Smart Alarm app on my phone and my sleep was only at 56%. Not very good at all. I felt like I was up most of the night. Ok, maybe not up, but awake. I had a dream that I was my age but back in high school. I didn’t what class I supposed to be in and when I finally got to where I was supposed to be, I didn’t know what the heck the teacher was teaching. I asked for a book, but she wouldn’t give it to me. I hate dreams about going back to high school. Anyway…I think that I’m just exhausted and may just have to get my yoga on today to center me a bit. I feel a bit off. That’s what it is.

My husband is a little concerned with my weight loss and maybe that is a contributing factor. This I weighed myself at 104.4 lbs. Not good at all. I’m way under weight. I just weighed in again at 106.2 lbs. Weird, but I did just have lunch. Turkey with lettuce and a bit of cheese on a thin whole grain bun. I know that may be cheating a little from the diet that I have been on for the past week, but I need carbs and protein.

As far as my workout went this morning, I felt really good about it. I tried my hardest to keep up with the 5 lb. weights. I would switch in the middle to the 3 lb. weights when it got too much for my arms, but I kept up with the weight. Gonna get stronger! That’s my goal. I didn’t stop which is awesome for me. GO ME! Even if I did modify in the middle of an exercise. I didn’t modify every exercise. My favorite? Actually my favorite is the surrenders. The very first exercise. Autumn says that it’s the hardest for that workout, but I really like that. I love engaging my leg muscles. It’s my arms that gives me the hardest time.

My shakeology this morning was delicious as was yesterdays. Today was Nutty Butter which consisted of milk, walnuts, peanut butter, half of a banana and shakeology. Super yummy. I could drink that all day long. yesterday was vanilla almond which consisted of unsweetened vanilla almond milk, almond butter and vanilla shakeology. When I saw the price of it, I didn’t think that I could afford to drink it every month. Now that I have tried it, I love it and want to keep it in my daily diet, that’s for sure. Anyway…I know it’s short today, but until tomorrow all!

Day 6 & 7 Fix

I did not post yesterday, my apologies. I was out most of the day and by the time I got home, got all of my stuff put away, my exercises and dinner thought of, the husband came home and wanted to burn trash and then wanted to eat. So this post is for yesterday and today.

Yesterday, I had to go out of town and it so happens that where I had to go to, there was a Target in town. I LOVE Target. Living an hour or more from civilization, I take the opportunity for target shopping when I can. I bought a resistance band thinking that I might like it better than my weight. Wrong. I used a couple of times during the workout, but I switched back to my weights. My fix was supposed to be Dirty 30 but since I did that at the beginning of the week, I did the Upper Fix instead. Oh man, do I need to do that more often. I loved working out my arms. After that, I think I may double up some days so I can work my arms more. It was tough especially since I don’t have that much strength in my arms. I want to get up to using 5 & 8 lb. weights. That’s my goal right now. That may not seem like a lot to most people, but it’s a lot for me! I broiled salmon for dinner and had the leftover stir fry veggies. It was delicious. Gonna have to get more of that to eat. I loved it more than I thought I would. Who knew eating so healthy could taste so delicious? Anyway…Still working on the 10 minute abs. I try so hard to not stop, but it hurts so bad. I know the only way to get stronger is to push through, but when you can’t breathe, it’s a little difficult. I love the burn, hate the hurt. I was hoping that by the end of this week, I was going to be able to go the whole 10 minutes without stopping, but I’m not quite there yet. I have to modify just to keep myself moving.

Today is a yoga fix. I’m pretty excited b/c I love yoga, but I think I may double up on something else. I’m trying to build muscle here. I started the week out at 108.8 lbs. Now? I’m at 105.2 lbs. I know that I’m losing fat lbs. at least I’m pretty sure that I am, but I really don’t want to lose any more weight than necessary. I’m 5’2” so I’m not skin and bones, but I am small. According to the BMI charts, I’m actually under weight. My ideal weight for my height is 122 lbs! I need to gain 17 lbs of muscle! Wow! How in the world do I that with only 1200-1500 calorie diet? My cousin (who is a beachbody coach) is helping me, but I’m up for any other advice and help. I don’t want to just take supplements to help. I love food and want to eat, but I want to eat the right stuff. Well, I need to get to my yoga fix today and some lunch. Until tomorrow!

The Better Me Project

There are days that I feel very lazy and don’t want to do a thing, and then there are days that I feel very productive and get so much done that I don’t know how I did it all in one day. Unfortunately, the lazy days come too often and the productive days…well, you get where I am going with that. I want to be a better person. A better mother. A better wife. A better, well…everything. It’s hard to get things done with 2 kids running around the house taking everything out that you just cleaned up or making messes where you just vacuumed. It gets frustrating and almost makes me not want to try to some point because it’s just going to get messy again. I strive to have the house cleaned, laundry done and dinner finished by the time hubby comes home from work, but it doesn’t always work out that way. He’s a good sport about it just as long as I pay attention to the kids and make sure that they are learning something new everyday or getting outside to play. I am not a perfect mother and neglect that sometimes, but that is because my brain is sometimes in cleaning mode, and I feel that I need to get everything done. The reality of it all though, I CAN stop what I am doing because it won’t go anywhere, and I can get it done later. That mode is hard for me to turn off sometimes.

Today, I was sitting on the couch with my daughter (who is almost 3), and I was loving on her. I told her that I was going to eat her toes. She started laughing and said “no mommy, my toes not food. That food.” I kept persisting just to make her laugh, and kept saying that her toes weren’t food. Too cute, right? Kids say the funniest things. After that, I started doing laundry, but I wanted her help and she wanted to play with her puzzles. She wanted me to play so I made a deal. She helped me with laundry, and I would play with puzzles. She was very happy to help as long as mommy played with her. I don’t want to miss anymore moments like that ever. I know that with life, it will happen, but I am going to try my hardest to be the best mommy that I can be for my babies.

If you would have known me a few years back, you would ask me what changed me because I am definitely not the same person I was even just a couple years ago. I didn’t cook. I hardly cleaned. I didn’t craft. I wasn’t creative whatsoever. Let’s just say, I was not motivated to really be anything special. I was just plain boring. Well, lately, that just hasn’t settled with me. I got on Food Network and started looking up recipes and things that looked yummy. I got addicted to Pinterest (like everyone else). I used my sewing machine so much that it crapped out on me last week. I love to crochet at night before I go to bed. I sell on etsy. I clean just about everyday. I look for things to make my household more organized…etc…In fact, the next project that I am going to start very soon is building my own furniture. I can’t ever seem to find furniture that I really like, just stuff that I could live with and then eventually sell or throw out. I want pieces that I can be proud of keep forever. The Handbuilt Home by Ana WhiteΒ is where I got the idea that I can do things like that from. She has easy to understand instructions and an appeal to her designs. If my first build comes out as awesome as I think that it will, I think that I am going to get her book. :)I want to learn now what I can teach my kids later in life. I want them to learn how to be respectful and polite. Calling elders ma’am and sir or just anyone. I want them to know how to manage money and be creative. I want them to want to learn. To have a passion for something. To love and to live. To be like their daddy and to WANT to be like him.

Their daddy is a wonderful man and a loving husband. I am better at being a mother, I can be better at being a wife. If I can be a better wife, I can be a better me. I don’t want to lose ME in all the other titles that I have. I want to be somebody and touch someone with my story. My past. My present and my future. I do not boast in the things that I have done lately because without my God, I couldn’t have, wouldn’t have started or done anything that I have. He is the One who has given me the creativity and the want to be better and make things beautiful. He has given me the mind to start these things. Because trust me, I am not who I was years ago. I am better already and the journey to a better life has just started.

I hope to inspire so stick with me πŸ™‚

There’s No Place Like Home

I begin to think about all the places that I have been and lived, and it’s a wonder why we haven’t settled. We both come from small towns, but we are definitely NOT small town people. We have big dreams. Bigger dreams than what living in a small town can give us. Some people like the small town atmosphere. The feeling of family all being in one place and everyone gathering for special occasions like Christmas and Thanksgiving. It’s not like that for our little family. Both sides drives us a little crazy, but we still love them, but not enough to move back to small town USA.

I went to my mom’s this weekend to spend some time with my grandmother. She is in poor health, and I want her to be able to see her great grandbabies as much as possible before anything happens. My kids are 1 and 2 years old so when I take them out of their normal environment, it really shows and makes this mama extremely tired. My mom’s house is no where near kid friendly so I was constantly putting things up so they couldn’t break anything. That’s exhausting when you are doing it all day. I went to my dad’s place and saw him this weekend. It was a nice visit considering everything that I have said to him this past year. (I’m not going to elaborate)

Kylee loved playing with Mammaw, and I’m sure that she enjoyed it too, but Kylee is 2 and a little rough. Mammaw was a trooper, but I eventually hod to get Kylee to quit climbing on her. She didn’t like that, but she was also very ready to come home and see her daddy. I was only gone for 2 days. Daddy went to his parents this weekend and went racing with his dad. We have to get as much family time in as possible. Why? We are moving to California in a very short 2 months.

CALIFORNIA!

You have to understand. We are from the midwest, which I think is inaccurate anyway because we aren’t even close to the middle of the US and we are more east than west. I don’t understand and I never have understood why they call us the midwest…Anyway…I’m super stoked. I’m really ready for this move, and I have been ready for this change for a long time. It’s way far away, and I’m ok with that. It’s going to be a journey worth taking. We just got the news at the end of last week. I was ready then to drop everything and go.

I love traveling, I hate moving. I love living in different parts of the US. I hate moving. I love seeing the sights and the beauty this country has to offer. I hate moving…you see a pattern? Moving requires organization, packing, driving, hotels, gas…$$$…My husband is fortunate enough to have a job that pays for our move, or at least, pays us back afterwards.

So this is a new beginning for us and I can’t wait to share all of our experiences and hang ups. Good times and bad. Will you join me?

When I Get Old…er

Sometimes, I get to thinking about when I get older, where will I be? Who will I know? Will my kids still be close? Will I start going crazy? Am I already headed down the path to crazy? Will my husband and I still be motorcycle riding, adventure taking old people? Will we own a house? Cars? Land? Grandkids? Will we go up in rapture before any of that will actually happen?

There are a lot of things to consider. We rent a house. We pay 2 car loans. Own 2 dirtbikes for actually racing purposes. 3 working bicycles for exercise purposes. We do not have a gym membership. We do not pay any kind of community fees from living in a subdivision. God forbid that we ever have to do that. The country is where we want to be. We will never own a mini van, no matter if we have more kids or not. I love my Cadillac! I make up excuses to leave my house so I can drive it.

I still have both of my parents. This will be the only time in my life that I can say that I am about to be a big sister. Half sister. My dad’s girlfriend is having his baby. Weird? Yes. Completely. It’s an *oh well, let’s move on* situation. I buy my kid’s clothes from Children’s Place and Baby Gap. I’m a little obsessed, but with this whole trying to save for a year to pay off a vehicle, I have to cut back that shopping a bit. My kids love being outside and would live outside if I would let them.

My daughter is cute and she knows it. My son is my bud and laughs every time I just look at him. I call my daughter monster. My son is called Bubby and mostly answers to Bubby. The monster girl does not like being cold. Bubby is hot most of the time. Anyway, you get the drift. Life is pretty great right now. We are waiting to see where the job is going to take us within the next few months. Somewhere South, just not sure where.

All of this moving around doesn’t leave much room for stability. The kids aren’t old enough to be in school yet, so it doesn’t hurt to move right now, but when they start school, things may change. Not sure how though. When I think about our future and where we will be, I honestly can’t see us anywhere yet. I haven’t found that one place that I love to be, and we just have to live there. We have met some great people in our travels, and we have met some not so great people. We have met people that were great in that moment, but very easy to forget in the long run and we have met people that will be our friends forever.

Our goal for our life is to eventually find land, build a house on a small part of that land and then the rest…motocross track! My husband will be riding his dirtbike forever into eternity. At our mansion in Heaven, God had better allow for a track to built for him or he may consider moving πŸ˜‰ His dad still races and he is turning 61 this year. My husband is covered as far as what he wants to do when I grows old, but me? I think I may know what I want to do, but it’s just a matter of where we when that time comes.

I love being creative. I love home decorating and making things pretty. I love cooking and have people enjoy that cooking. I love making people feel comfortable and happy. Someday, I would like to open up my own B&B. Sounds reasonable? I think so. I just have to plan and plan…and oh yeah…make a plan. Pray and believe. I have ambition, but I need to learn the ropes. I never went to college. I got married early in life and still don’t regret it to this day.

I strive to be the parent that my kids can look up to and say to their friends *I want to be like my mom and dad when I grow up* I want to set the bar. I don’t want to be just another statistic. I want to grow up with dignity and be a woman of honor and help my husband be the man he is supposed to be. I am very blessed to be where I am at right now and try not to take anything for granted. I love my husband. I love kids. I love my family. I want to live the standard of Godly parents.

I will mess up. I will fail. I will occasionally yell and then cry because I was too hard. My kids will get mad at me. They will say things to me that will hurt my feelings, but in the end I know that they don’t really mean what they said. I will take things personal. But if none of those things happen, I will never learn. Growing up is hard and life isn’t fair. Just take what you have and cherish it and make the best of what God gives you.

Just a Quick One

We are getting ready for our day. I paid all of our bills, put money in savings, made a plan for everything I need to get today, and afterwards, I’m pretty sure that we will have enough to put more in savings. Do I wait until next payday to do it, or do I go ahead and bite it and do it now? Jordan is racing this weekend, so I may have to wait until after that to see how much I can put in.

Conner’s birthday party is this Saturday. Going to make fondant tonight, cake tomorrow and leave Saturday morning. Kylee is staying at her grandparents til Thursday, so it will just be me and my lil’ man. I’m determined to get him walking next week! I will have tons of time to work with him. On top of that, I will be getting things ready for my yard sale in May. I just have to gather things and take them to the unused basement. Anyway…Lots of things to do today. Gotta go!