The Better Me Project

There are days that I feel very lazy and don’t want to do a thing, and then there are days that I feel very productive and get so much done that I don’t know how I did it all in one day. Unfortunately, the lazy days come too often and the productive days…well, you get where I am going with that. I want to be a better person. A better mother. A better wife. A better, well…everything. It’s hard to get things done with 2 kids running around the house taking everything out that you just cleaned up or making messes where you just vacuumed. It gets frustrating and almost makes me not want to try to some point because it’s just going to get messy again. I strive to have the house cleaned, laundry done and dinner finished by the time hubby comes home from work, but it doesn’t always work out that way. He’s a good sport about it just as long as I pay attention to the kids and make sure that they are learning something new everyday or getting outside to play. I am not a perfect mother and neglect that sometimes, but that is because my brain is sometimes in cleaning mode, and I feel that I need to get everything done. The reality of it all though, I CAN stop what I am doing because it won’t go anywhere, and I can get it done later. That mode is hard for me to turn off sometimes.

Today, I was sitting on the couch with my daughter (who is almost 3), and I was loving on her. I told her that I was going to eat her toes. She started laughing and said “no mommy, my toes not food. That food.” I kept persisting just to make her laugh, and kept saying that her toes weren’t food. Too cute, right? Kids say the funniest things. After that, I started doing laundry, but I wanted her help and she wanted to play with her puzzles. She wanted me to play so I made a deal. She helped me with laundry, and I would play with puzzles. She was very happy to help as long as mommy played with her. I don’t want to miss anymore moments like that ever. I know that with life, it will happen, but I am going to try my hardest to be the best mommy that I can be for my babies.

If you would have known me a few years back, you would ask me what changed me because I am definitely not the same person I was even just a couple years ago. I didn’t cook. I hardly cleaned. I didn’t craft. I wasn’t creative whatsoever. Let’s just say, I was not motivated to really be anything special. I was just plain boring. Well, lately, that just hasn’t settled with me. I got on Food Network and started looking up recipes and things that looked yummy. I got addicted to Pinterest (like everyone else). I used my sewing machine so much that it crapped out on me last week. I love to crochet at night before I go to bed. I sell on etsy. I clean just about everyday. I look for things to make my household more organized…etc…In fact, the next project that I am going to start very soon is building my own furniture. I can’t ever seem to find furniture that I really like, just stuff that I could live with and then eventually sell or throw out. I want pieces that I can be proud of keep forever. The Handbuilt Home by Ana Whiteย is where I got the idea that I can do things like that from. She has easy to understand instructions and an appeal to her designs. If my first build comes out as awesome as I think that it will, I think that I am going to get her book. :)I want to learn now what I can teach my kids later in life. I want them to learn how to be respectful and polite. Calling elders ma’am and sir or just anyone. I want them to know how to manage money and be creative. I want them to want to learn. To have a passion for something. To love and to live. To be like their daddy and to WANT to be like him.

Their daddy is a wonderful man and a loving husband. I am better at being a mother, I can be better at being a wife. If I can be a better wife, I can be a better me. I don’t want to lose ME in all the other titles that I have. I want to be somebody and touch someone with my story. My past. My present and my future. I do not boast in the things that I have done lately because without my God, I couldn’t have, wouldn’t have started or done anything that I have. He is the One who has given me the creativity and the want to be better and make things beautiful. He has given me the mind to start these things. Because trust me, I am not who I was years ago. I am better already and the journey to a better life has just started.

I hope to inspire so stick with me ๐Ÿ™‚

Redirection…

It has been quite some time since I have been on here. At first it was hard not blogging, but the longer I waited to do it, the easier it got to slip my mind. I put it on hold when a new direction of life presented itself to us, and we had to move cross country…like literally. 1800 miles away from home. The hubby’s job moved us to sunny California! I love it here ๐Ÿ™‚ Couldn’t ask for a better experience so far. Anyway…Since we have been here, I have been quite busy trying to figure out my place in life now. The kids are getting older and easier to deal with. Ky is in preschool and loving every minute of it. It also gives me a few hours of alone time C. He misses his sissy though when she is gone. Before we initially moved, I started sewing and making crafts just for fun. Now? I am trying to make a business out of it. I am starting out by making wallets to sell and have a couple patterns for purses but haven’t gotten that far yet. I made a duvet for the guest room and just finished Ky’s bedspread for the bed she will be getting here soon. I will post pictures after the bed is all put together. I have an etsy shop.

http://www.etsy.com/shop/mamamaryeldesigns

I started selling Scentsy again and hope to do well with it here. I have a couple of parties lined up, but nothing set in stone yet.

http://marylake.scentsy.us

My house is constantly a mess with kid’s toys and my sewing projects everywhere. I have been cooking more. In fact, my house smells awesome right now because of the Crockpot Pork chops that are cooking right now. Making me hungry ๐Ÿ™‚ The hubby wants us to start playing music and singing again. We got the songs, just need the time to practice.

So as you can see, a lot of things are starting to develop, but just waiting for the time when it all comes to pass and start being a success at things that we want to do and not what we necessarily have to do. Ky’s birthday is coming up quickly which means that Christmas is also. Lots of things to do. Lots to get ready for. And as I am writing, I am realizing that I don’t have much else to say right now ๐Ÿ™‚ Guess it’s time for the Waltons on the Hallmark Channel…I’m such a girl ๐Ÿ˜‰

When I Get Old…er

Sometimes, I get to thinking about when I get older, where will I be? Who will I know? Will my kids still be close? Will I start going crazy? Am I already headed down the path to crazy? Will my husband and I still be motorcycle riding, adventure taking old people? Will we own a house? Cars? Land? Grandkids? Will we go up in rapture before any of that will actually happen?

There are a lot of things to consider. We rent a house. We pay 2 car loans. Own 2 dirtbikes for actually racing purposes. 3 working bicycles for exercise purposes. We do not have a gym membership. We do not pay any kind of community fees from living in a subdivision. God forbid that we ever have to do that. The country is where we want to be. We will never own a mini van, no matter if we have more kids or not. I love my Cadillac! I make up excuses to leave my house so I can drive it.

I still have both of my parents. This will be the only time in my life that I can say that I am about to be a big sister. Half sister. My dad’s girlfriend is having his baby. Weird? Yes. Completely. It’s an *oh well, let’s move on* situation. I buy my kid’s clothes from Children’s Place and Baby Gap. I’m a little obsessed, but with this whole trying to save for a year to pay off a vehicle, I have to cut back that shopping a bit. My kids love being outside and would live outside if I would let them.

My daughter is cute and she knows it. My son is my bud and laughs every time I just look at him. I call my daughter monster. My son is called Bubby and mostly answers to Bubby. The monster girl does not like being cold. Bubby is hot most of the time. Anyway, you get the drift. Life is pretty great right now. We are waiting to see where the job is going to take us within the next few months. Somewhere South, just not sure where.

All of this moving around doesn’t leave much room for stability. The kids aren’t old enough to be in school yet, so it doesn’t hurt to move right now, but when they start school, things may change. Not sure how though. When I think about our future and where we will be, I honestly can’t see us anywhere yet. I haven’t found that one place that I love to be, and we just have to live there. We have met some great people in our travels, and we have met some not so great people. We have met people that were great in that moment, but very easy to forget in the long run and we have met people that will be our friends forever.

Our goal for our life is to eventually find land, build a house on a small part of that land and then the rest…motocross track! My husband will be riding his dirtbike forever into eternity. At our mansion in Heaven, God had better allow for a track to built for him or he may consider moving ๐Ÿ˜‰ His dad still races and he is turning 61 this year. My husband is covered as far as what he wants to do when I grows old, but me? I think I may know what I want to do, but it’s just a matter of where we when that time comes.

I love being creative. I love home decorating and making things pretty. I love cooking and have people enjoy that cooking. I love making people feel comfortable and happy. Someday, I would like to open up my own B&B. Sounds reasonable? I think so. I just have to plan and plan…and oh yeah…make a plan. Pray and believe. I have ambition, but I need to learn the ropes. I never went to college. I got married early in life and still don’t regret it to this day.

I strive to be the parent that my kids can look up to and say to their friends *I want to be like my mom and dad when I grow up* I want to set the bar. I don’t want to be just another statistic. I want to grow up with dignity and be a woman of honor and help my husband be the man he is supposed to be. I am very blessed to be where I am at right now and try not to take anything for granted. I love my husband. I love kids. I love my family. I want to live the standard of Godly parents.

I will mess up. I will fail. I will occasionally yell and then cry because I was too hard. My kids will get mad at me. They will say things to me that will hurt my feelings, but in the end I know that they don’t really mean what they said. I will take things personal. But if none of those things happen, I will never learn. Growing up is hard and life isn’t fair. Just take what you have and cherish it and make the best of what God gives you.

This Takes the Cake

I made my first cake last night, and let me tell you, it may not look pretty, but oh my! It tastes amazing! I get a lot of my recipes off of http://www.foodnetwork.com. It took a couple of tries for the frosting. The first try came out too runny. I think I messed up with the egg whites. I don’t think that I whipped them up enough. I’m sure that it would have worked for a more professional baker, but I’m still learning. This is the frosting I ended up using:

Basic Buttercream Icing on the Food Network.

The cake that I made wasย Classic White Cake on the Food Network. OMG! This tastes amazing. I was making this as a birthday cake test for my son. There wasn’t a lot of ingredients involved which was great because I had everything that I needed for my little project. Looks good huh?

I was really surprised about how little batter this recipe made, so the actual cake was smaller than I was expecting.

I worked on the frosting as the cakes were being made. Like I said, the first one did not work out, but here it is cooking.

That part was a little difficult for me because I was trying to get my eggs whites to beat and also keep check on the temperature of the syrup. Yeah, that’s something that I have definitely not mastered yet. ๐Ÿ™‚

The second frosting that I made did not need cooking. It was just 2 pounds of powdered sugar, 2 tsp. vanilla, half a cup of milk and a cup and a half of butter. It’s very sweet but yet so heavenly. The next time I make a frosting, I have a different recipe that I’m going to try, but I need a double boiler for it.

Well, like I said, the cake didn’t come out too pretty, but it tastes amazing! Very moist and oh so yummy. My next project ย in baking is rolling fondant. I would like to make that for my son’s birthday cake.

If you have any suggestions, I am all ears. I need as much help that I can get. I love to bake, and I want to get better. Enjoy!

For a Baby Boy Room

I’ve been very busy with different projects for several different things, and I haven’t had much time to blog about anything. Also, there hasn’t really been that much to blog about, but here I am now. The husband fell asleep, the kids are in bed and I am still up. So I may be about to say the strangest thing ever, and it has taken me quite a while to come to terms with it, but I, a 26 year old daughter, is actually going to be a big sister.

I KNOW! CRAZY! RIGHT!?!

So it’s only a half sister, but still weird when my dad is 61. Don’t ask. Anyway…Since I can’t help but be nice ๐Ÿ™‚ I made something for the little squirt. Something totally out of the blue, and it helped me with my creative side. I’m kinda proud of it too since it was something that I came up with on my own.ย Obviously, they are going with a sports theme. Totally cute? Right? I was going to cut out a bat, but I got to thinking that that would have been too many. I think that’s it perfect the way it is. It’s all felt with embroidery thread for details.

The Wilson on the basketball wasn’t easy. I pinned the name to circle, embroidered through the paper and then tore it out. I didn’t know any other way to do it. It’s a little crooked, but it gives it character.

THe project cost a little more than what I hoping to spend, but if I could generate interest and sell this kind of stuff, I would love it! It only took me 2 days to create this. I’m thinking about trying animals or geometric shapes….something for my kid’s room whenever it is that we buy a house. Anyway…just a little post. Enjoy!

My Life Consists Of…

I guess there is no better way than to describe my life as a dreaming wanting to come true. I love to go to school, but after discussion with my husband and future plans, and it just isn’t in the cards right now. It’s fine. Really…We are trying to figure out what to do about settling down, buying land/house, saving for our kid’s education, saving for retirement, etc etc…

It’s all a bit overwhelming right? Isn’t that the dream though. The great American dream with the white picket fence and all? Well, I found some land in Florida. 10 acres for $41,000. In this economy, you can’t beat that. How fast will work on this dream of ours and when will become a reality? Not too sure, but I know it’s there, we just haven’t crossed paths with it yet.

As for our perfect home. We have an idea of what we want and it isn’t anything elaborate by no means. When I say that, I mean, it won’t be huge or costly. What’s the picture of my dream home? 3 br. 2 1/2 bath. A small Chef’s Kitchen with living area attached, basically a big open space with an island in the kitchen. This island will have the stove and on one of the walls with dark wood cabinets, I will have a double oven. I love to bake and cook so it’s a must! The Bedrooms will be the only part of the house that is carpeted, the rest will either be dark wood floors or colored cement. The cement could get cold so that’s why I say either. A spacious laundry room with stackable washer/dryer and counter space for folding and cabinets for storage. A loft or rec room for toys, exercise equipment, music stuff, a whatever room with a guest bed. (A thought, what about a wall pull out bed?) You know what I mean?

The master bedroom will have a nice spacious closet and the bathroom will have a really deep tub that will look flushed with the floor ( instead of stepping over to get in the tub, I will step down into it) Separate shower with 2 shower heads. I realize that all that sounds expensive and costly like I said we didn’t want, but the bedrooms don’t have to be huge. We only sleep in there so need for huge rooms. The house will look more like a barn than an actual house. As much as I love to swim, we will probably skip on a pool. If we live in Florida, I’m sure that we can survive.

For the outside, we are a racing family, so what else would you expect than for us to build our own motocross track! A pee-wee one first for when the kids start out and build it up as they get older. A big barn/garage area for everything yard/motorcycle related.

Sounds like we have a lot of saving to do right? We have to, especially in today’s world. It is ok to have a dream right? I want to have a home so that I can decorate, paint, buy furniture, and basically have the space to do everything that I already do wherever we go. Anyway. That’s it for now. I got to get a baby blanket and other baby decorations done this week, so I better get at it!

I Need Help!

So I am sitting here at the computer while my son naps and my daughter watches Baby First cartoons, and I am coming up blank to what to write. I have a roast in the crockpot, started a fleece baby blanket, printed out pictures for a felt project for a sports themed baby room, strung up my son’s birthday banner, worked on the birthday party favors…sounds like a busy day huh?? I also got some play time in there.

I want to know what my followers or anyone else that comes across my posts wants to read about. I realize that no one knows me and who really cares? but I need something to spark my writing creativity and help those that just have a need to be nosy. ๐Ÿ™‚ I wouldn’t blog if that really mattered to me. So here’s my challenge…comment on this post and let me know something that you would want to read about…something about my life, past, present and/or future….If no one is really that interested in playing along, that’s ok. I will still write later when I get another chance to. Say when the kids are asleep and no one is tugging at my hand to go play or get something to eat. Anxious to read your response! Don’t be afraid…ask anything! ๐Ÿ™‚