Days 10-14 Fix

It’s been a few days since I have posted, but that doesn’t mean that I have quit. Far from it. I have been sticking to the meal plan as much as possible. I say it that way b/c I haven’t been feeling as hungry this week as the last week. Not sure if that’s b/c my body has gotten used to less calories, but I’ve been having regular meals, 3 times daily with a snack (sometimes) in between. I haven’t had any sugar, nothing fried…Like I said, sticking to the meal plan. I have been doing my workouts regularly, and I have been thinking about doubling up on them. I’m kinda at a stand still now, like I have peeked. I’m feeling good, but I wanna feel even better. I wanna see my ab muscles and I was hoping that I would have started to see them by now, but that isn’t happening. I have gone from working out with 3 and 5 lb weights to 5 and 8 lb. weights! YAH me! Yesterday was dirty 30, and oh boy can I feel it in the front part of my shoulders! It’s a good pain, don’t worry.

I had considered possibly becoming a beachbody coach, but I’m gonna hold off right now. I was going to do it for the discount on the shakeology, but I decided to do a little research on the product before I jump in all the way. Now, don’t leave me yet. I don’t have anything BAD to say about shakeology. I love the drink. I have been drinking it everyday and have been enjoying it, especially after my workouts. It has reduced my sweet cravings, but not my appetite (which is ok) I like it better as a snack than a meal replacement. I’m usually hungry about 30 minutes after drinking it, so I eat some fruit. It is an acquired taste for sure, and I’m sure it also depends on the recipe you use for your drink. The husband didn’t like it, but that’s alright. The shake got a lot of mixed reviews. Mostly the negative was the cost, and I totally agree. Now that I have been drinking a shake everyday, I can’t imagine going a day without some sort of protein shake. I ordered something different, but I’m gonna wait to tell you what it is until I get it and try it. I will say that it is half the cost of my current drink and has been ranked #1 compared to all the rest of the protein shakes out there. I can’t wait to try it and let you all know!

I’m not giving up on this plan though. I love beachbody, but I’m going to get into fitness and nutrition, I want to put my money into something that will further me educationally. I’ve been looking for books and other information about nutrition and fitness and can’t wait to learn. Let’s just see where this takes me! Thanks goes to my cousin for getting me into the fix and keeping my motivated. And to my husband, for telling me how proud he is of me for making myself better and feel better (even if that means that he has to eat my sometimes healthy food!) Until tomorrow…or whenever that is πŸ™‚

Day 9 Fix

So it’s either getting easier or I’m getting stronger! My body isn’t hurting like it was at the beginning of last week. I’m seeing a difference, especially in the way my clothes look. I feel even better. I say that, and I still want to take a nap in the middle of the day. Maybe I’m just not active enough in general. I feel great in the morning after my breakfast and workout, but now…yes now I want to nap. Can I? Nope. There are 2 little people that won’t let me. Anyway…Since I didn’t sleep well the night before, I thought that I would try something a little different. I put on the yoga Fix. As soon as I did though, I realized that I hadn’t done my 10 minutes abs. Therefore, I did THAT first. I didn’t want to skip it now when I’m almost able to get through the whole 10 minutes without stopping! So I did yoga after I put the kids to bed and during, Ky got up and sat on her daddy’s lap while I tried to relax. The only problem with that? She would not stop talking! My little girl does not stop until she is actually asleep. She started out in a whisper and got louder and louder. I told her daddy that it was time to put her to bed! I felt super relaxed afterwards. We watched a little bit of a movie, and I fell asleep almost right away and SLEPT ALL NIGHT LONG! I felt so awesome waking up this morning.

Today was another Upper Fix and guess what!?! I used my 5 lb. weights almost the whole time!. Know what that means? I need to go get myself some 8 lb. weights soon. That is very exciting for me. I had to switch between my lighter and heavier weights by the 2nd round when I felt my arms almost falling off. Great isn’t it? I had shakeology. I basically had to choke it down b/c I don’t want to waste. I did the Vanilla Nog again. I thought that I liked it more than I did today. Not my favorite. I think it’s b/c of the Run extract, so I think that I will stick to something more Vanilla-y.

My coaches have told me that I need to up my calorie intake since I have been losing too much weight. I have been sticking to my meal plan pretty well. I may sneak a yogurt in there every once in a while, but def. not a lot. Here’s why…When you buy food that expires, you have to eat it, as long as it isn’t all bad for you. I haven’t had any cookies or candy for over a week now, and I feel alright. My tastebuds will get over it. I have been holding strong. In fact, I crave more fruits now than before which is great. That and peanut butter πŸ˜‰ Until tomorrow all!

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Day 8 Fix

Well, today is the beginning of the 2nd week of the 21 Day Fix. I can definitely see a difference in my body. I feel better as far as my normal energy is concerned. I say it that way b/c I’m stuck inside all day, everyday b/c it’s cold outside. I HATE the cold! Even in the forties, it’s too cold out. Not feeling up to par today either. I don’t feel sick or anything, just blah. That’s all. I did have my shakeology this morning and did my workout, but even that didn’t seem to help. I think maybe today is one of those days. I didn’t sleep very good last night either. I use a Smart Alarm app on my phone and my sleep was only at 56%. Not very good at all. I felt like I was up most of the night. Ok, maybe not up, but awake. I had a dream that I was my age but back in high school. I didn’t what class I supposed to be in and when I finally got to where I was supposed to be, I didn’t know what the heck the teacher was teaching. I asked for a book, but she wouldn’t give it to me. I hate dreams about going back to high school. Anyway…I think that I’m just exhausted and may just have to get my yoga on today to center me a bit. I feel a bit off. That’s what it is.

My husband is a little concerned with my weight loss and maybe that is a contributing factor. This I weighed myself at 104.4 lbs. Not good at all. I’m way under weight. I just weighed in again at 106.2 lbs. Weird, but I did just have lunch. Turkey with lettuce and a bit of cheese on a thin whole grain bun. I know that may be cheating a little from the diet that I have been on for the past week, but I need carbs and protein.

As far as my workout went this morning, I felt really good about it. I tried my hardest to keep up with the 5 lb. weights. I would switch in the middle to the 3 lb. weights when it got too much for my arms, but I kept up with the weight. Gonna get stronger! That’s my goal. I didn’t stop which is awesome for me. GO ME! Even if I did modify in the middle of an exercise. I didn’t modify every exercise. My favorite? Actually my favorite is the surrenders. The very first exercise. Autumn says that it’s the hardest for that workout, but I really like that. I love engaging my leg muscles. It’s my arms that gives me the hardest time.

My shakeology this morning was delicious as was yesterdays. Today was Nutty Butter which consisted of milk, walnuts, peanut butter, half of a banana and shakeology. Super yummy. I could drink that all day long. yesterday was vanilla almond which consisted of unsweetened vanilla almond milk, almond butter and vanilla shakeology. When I saw the price of it, I didn’t think that I could afford to drink it every month. Now that I have tried it, I love it and want to keep it in my daily diet, that’s for sure. Anyway…I know it’s short today, but until tomorrow all!

Day 6 & 7 Fix

I did not post yesterday, my apologies. I was out most of the day and by the time I got home, got all of my stuff put away, my exercises and dinner thought of, the husband came home and wanted to burn trash and then wanted to eat. So this post is for yesterday and today.

Yesterday, I had to go out of town and it so happens that where I had to go to, there was a Target in town. I LOVE Target. Living an hour or more from civilization, I take the opportunity for target shopping when I can. I bought a resistance band thinking that I might like it better than my weight. Wrong. I used a couple of times during the workout, but I switched back to my weights. My fix was supposed to be Dirty 30 but since I did that at the beginning of the week, I did the Upper Fix instead. Oh man, do I need to do that more often. I loved working out my arms. After that, I think I may double up some days so I can work my arms more. It was tough especially since I don’t have that much strength in my arms. I want to get up to using 5 & 8 lb. weights. That’s my goal right now. That may not seem like a lot to most people, but it’s a lot for me! I broiled salmon for dinner and had the leftover stir fry veggies. It was delicious. Gonna have to get more of that to eat. I loved it more than I thought I would. Who knew eating so healthy could taste so delicious? Anyway…Still working on the 10 minute abs. I try so hard to not stop, but it hurts so bad. I know the only way to get stronger is to push through, but when you can’t breathe, it’s a little difficult. I love the burn, hate the hurt. I was hoping that by the end of this week, I was going to be able to go the whole 10 minutes without stopping, but I’m not quite there yet. I have to modify just to keep myself moving.

Today is a yoga fix. I’m pretty excited b/c I love yoga, but I think I may double up on something else. I’m trying to build muscle here. I started the week out at 108.8 lbs. Now? I’m at 105.2 lbs. I know that I’m losing fat lbs. at least I’m pretty sure that I am, but I really don’t want to lose any more weight than necessary. I’m 5’2” so I’m not skin and bones, but I am small. According to the BMI charts, I’m actually under weight. My ideal weight for my height is 122 lbs! I need to gain 17 lbs of muscle! Wow! How in the world do I that with only 1200-1500 calorie diet? My cousin (who is a beachbody coach) is helping me, but I’m up for any other advice and help. I don’t want to just take supplements to help. I love food and want to eat, but I want to eat the right stuff. Well, I need to get to my yoga fix today and some lunch. Until tomorrow!

Here’s to a New Start

I’ve been absent for quite a while. I’m not sure what the reason…nothing to blog about, life is pretty uneventful to say the least, whatever it is, blogging has taken a back seat for almost 2 years. Here’s I am…again…and gonna give it another try. We moved again back in May out of sunny CA to pretty dull KS. Ugh! Not much fun so far. Living in the middle of nowhere, having to drive a distance just to go get groceries is not my idea of fun. I’ve been trying to enjoy my kids more b/c they really are little only once, and it won’t be long before they are grown and in school, having friends of their own, not wanting to be home, etc…I’ve been trying to keep my spiritual self fed. I started the Proverb a day at the beginning of this month. And something else…I am getting ready to start 21 Day Fix by BeachBody, and I am stoked to say the least. I miss the gym. I miss feeling good. I miss feeling good about myself. I miss the nice weather to go out for a run whenever I want. Did I mention that I miss the gym? πŸ™‚ Anyway…21 Day Fix is a 3 week program to slim down, get toned, feel good and just in general change my lifestyle.

I have already changed the way I eat to a point. No more drive thru burgers and fries (makes me sick even thinking about it) cutting out the caffeine (with the exception of my morning coffee) No more soda! Eating more fruits and veggies and no more buying chips and dip. I messed my tummy up one night eating too much. I’m tired of fluctuating weight. I want to be strong and fit. I don’t want to be 108 lbs. of little and skinny, I want to be 115 lbs of muscle, strong and toned. No more small belly pudge, yes to sit-ups. No more jiggly butt, yes to jump squats and lunges!. I’m gonna do it! I really am. (Now don’t look at me like that! I really am!)

I will struggle. I will struggle at first. When I start a workout on DVD, usually I’m done in the first 10 minutes. Why you ask? I haven’t worked in almost 9 months! I get tired and no one is here to kick my butt and say get up and keep going! It’s so easy to just turn the tv off. It really is. Just try it…ha! just kidding…anyway…I get bored also. I know it’s just 30 minutes, but 30 minutes seems like an hour when you’re huffing and puffing and your muscles hurt and you just can’t go any further! Then you realize, THAT WAS JUST THE WARM UP! ya feel me?

What else will be a struggle? Cookies! Bread! more cookies! so….I really like to bake. Cookies, banana but bread, coffee cake, etc. I love my sweets. My major downfall…peanut butter m&m’s. I LOVE them! I really do. That is my go to candy. I have the munchies…I have a big bag of PB m&m’s. I don’t eat a lot at a time, just enough to satisfy my craving. Oh yeah, and breakfast food that includes strudels and the rare poptart. Fried eggs and toast with butter. Pancakes, french toast with butter and syrup…need I go on? I love food! That’s why a meal plan is so important for me and not only that, but to follow it. That’s gonna be my biggest struggle, not gonna lie.

Something I want to accomplish? Getting up before my kids and getting my workout, shower and breakfast in before the kids wake up. What will that require of me? Going to bed early. Getting my lazy, tired butt out of bed in the morning when my alarm goes off. Figuring out what to put in my stomach before my workout. I tried to workout on an empty stomach one time, yeah…almost made myself sick. Not a good thing.

So why the journey? Why do this all when I am already small to start out with? Well, Every year, I am getting older. I’m so close to 30 I can taste it! I want to always keep up with my kids…heck, I want to outrun my kids! I want to always be able to go out and play with them and when co-ed softball leagues come up, I’m ready! When zombies attack, I’m ready to run! HAHAHA! Who’s gonna help me? Who’s gonna be by my side during this journey for support?

I’ve kind of already started and my legs have been hurting for 3 days! I got a new app by Nike. I haven’t been able to finish the workouts yet, but my legs feel like jelly just after 8 minutes! I’m almost there! The workouts are only 15 minutes. I can do it. My husband said that he was proud of me for trying. Heck, I may just inspire him. Well, I’m out for now…Can’t wait to get pictures up to show my progress! So excited!

The Better Me Project

There are days that I feel very lazy and don’t want to do a thing, and then there are days that I feel very productive and get so much done that I don’t know how I did it all in one day. Unfortunately, the lazy days come too often and the productive days…well, you get where I am going with that. I want to be a better person. A better mother. A better wife. A better, well…everything. It’s hard to get things done with 2 kids running around the house taking everything out that you just cleaned up or making messes where you just vacuumed. It gets frustrating and almost makes me not want to try to some point because it’s just going to get messy again. I strive to have the house cleaned, laundry done and dinner finished by the time hubby comes home from work, but it doesn’t always work out that way. He’s a good sport about it just as long as I pay attention to the kids and make sure that they are learning something new everyday or getting outside to play. I am not a perfect mother and neglect that sometimes, but that is because my brain is sometimes in cleaning mode, and I feel that I need to get everything done. The reality of it all though, I CAN stop what I am doing because it won’t go anywhere, and I can get it done later. That mode is hard for me to turn off sometimes.

Today, I was sitting on the couch with my daughter (who is almost 3), and I was loving on her. I told her that I was going to eat her toes. She started laughing and said “no mommy, my toes not food. That food.” I kept persisting just to make her laugh, and kept saying that her toes weren’t food. Too cute, right? Kids say the funniest things. After that, I started doing laundry, but I wanted her help and she wanted to play with her puzzles. She wanted me to play so I made a deal. She helped me with laundry, and I would play with puzzles. She was very happy to help as long as mommy played with her. I don’t want to miss anymore moments like that ever. I know that with life, it will happen, but I am going to try my hardest to be the best mommy that I can be for my babies.

If you would have known me a few years back, you would ask me what changed me because I am definitely not the same person I was even just a couple years ago. I didn’t cook. I hardly cleaned. I didn’t craft. I wasn’t creative whatsoever. Let’s just say, I was not motivated to really be anything special. I was just plain boring. Well, lately, that just hasn’t settled with me. I got on Food Network and started looking up recipes and things that looked yummy. I got addicted to Pinterest (like everyone else). I used my sewing machine so much that it crapped out on me last week. I love to crochet at night before I go to bed. I sell on etsy. I clean just about everyday. I look for things to make my household more organized…etc…In fact, the next project that I am going to start very soon is building my own furniture. I can’t ever seem to find furniture that I really like, just stuff that I could live with and then eventually sell or throw out. I want pieces that I can be proud of keep forever. The Handbuilt Home by Ana WhiteΒ is where I got the idea that I can do things like that from. She has easy to understand instructions and an appeal to her designs. If my first build comes out as awesome as I think that it will, I think that I am going to get her book. :)I want to learn now what I can teach my kids later in life. I want them to learn how to be respectful and polite. Calling elders ma’am and sir or just anyone. I want them to know how to manage money and be creative. I want them to want to learn. To have a passion for something. To love and to live. To be like their daddy and to WANT to be like him.

Their daddy is a wonderful man and a loving husband. I am better at being a mother, I can be better at being a wife. If I can be a better wife, I can be a better me. I don’t want to lose ME in all the other titles that I have. I want to be somebody and touch someone with my story. My past. My present and my future. I do not boast in the things that I have done lately because without my God, I couldn’t have, wouldn’t have started or done anything that I have. He is the One who has given me the creativity and the want to be better and make things beautiful. He has given me the mind to start these things. Because trust me, I am not who I was years ago. I am better already and the journey to a better life has just started.

I hope to inspire so stick with me πŸ™‚

To Facebook or not to Facebook….

That is the question…I have been off of facebook for quite some time now, and I am rather enjoying it, being off that is. With our impending move coming closer, I have friends and family who will want to know what we are doing, where we will be and so on. Without facebook, I spend a lot more times with my kids, cook, sew, crochet, play, go outside. I spent a lot of time on the couch watching and waiting for people’s status updates, pictures, etc…Waste of my time.

I had more important things to do then spend time on facebook. Now that we are moving all the way across the country, is it going to be any different for me? Will I be in the habit of not getting on as much even if I do have it. Or will I be so consumed of taking pictures and needing to get them on facebook as quickly as possible so everyone can see my adorable children? πŸ™‚ Suggestions? Please?

Anyway…just a quick note of what was on my mind. I will update more soon, but today, I’m getting my babies back and going home to daddy. This was my last visit to my mom’s house before we leave. We have a lot of things to do before moving, and I don’t want to have to worry about driving any further that I need to. Plus, yaya misses us and we are going to the zoo tomorrow, weather permitting. πŸ™‚ Have a good day blog world!

There’s No Place Like Home

I begin to think about all the places that I have been and lived, and it’s a wonder why we haven’t settled. We both come from small towns, but we are definitely NOT small town people. We have big dreams. Bigger dreams than what living in a small town can give us. Some people like the small town atmosphere. The feeling of family all being in one place and everyone gathering for special occasions like Christmas and Thanksgiving. It’s not like that for our little family. Both sides drives us a little crazy, but we still love them, but not enough to move back to small town USA.

I went to my mom’s this weekend to spend some time with my grandmother. She is in poor health, and I want her to be able to see her great grandbabies as much as possible before anything happens. My kids are 1 and 2 years old so when I take them out of their normal environment, it really shows and makes this mama extremely tired. My mom’s house is no where near kid friendly so I was constantly putting things up so they couldn’t break anything. That’s exhausting when you are doing it all day. I went to my dad’s place and saw him this weekend. It was a nice visit considering everything that I have said to him this past year. (I’m not going to elaborate)

Kylee loved playing with Mammaw, and I’m sure that she enjoyed it too, but Kylee is 2 and a little rough. Mammaw was a trooper, but I eventually hod to get Kylee to quit climbing on her. She didn’t like that, but she was also very ready to come home and see her daddy. I was only gone for 2 days. Daddy went to his parents this weekend and went racing with his dad. We have to get as much family time in as possible. Why? We are moving to California in a very short 2 months.

CALIFORNIA!

You have to understand. We are from the midwest, which I think is inaccurate anyway because we aren’t even close to the middle of the US and we are more east than west. I don’t understand and I never have understood why they call us the midwest…Anyway…I’m super stoked. I’m really ready for this move, and I have been ready for this change for a long time. It’s way far away, and I’m ok with that. It’s going to be a journey worth taking. We just got the news at the end of last week. I was ready then to drop everything and go.

I love traveling, I hate moving. I love living in different parts of the US. I hate moving. I love seeing the sights and the beauty this country has to offer. I hate moving…you see a pattern? Moving requires organization, packing, driving, hotels, gas…$$$…My husband is fortunate enough to have a job that pays for our move, or at least, pays us back afterwards.

So this is a new beginning for us and I can’t wait to share all of our experiences and hang ups. Good times and bad. Will you join me?

Things to Know When Riding a Bike

I grew up in a world where if you didn’t wear your helmet, it was ok. I have never owned a helmet or any kind of riding safety for that matter. I taught myself how to ride a bike when I turned 7. My birthday is in January and I got a bike on that special day. Growing up in Indiana, well, in January, it snows or it’s just really freaking cold. As an adult, I try to avoid going out as much as possible when it’s cold out. I hate the cold, but as a kid, I guess I didn’t care. I was so excited about getting that bike, I took it outside and learned how to ride. No one pushing me, nothing. I didn’t fall but once and was riding like a pro after just a little while.

When I was in junior high, I lived just down the road from my school, so when it was nice outside, I would ride to school. I remember one day it was nice in the morning, but throughout the day, it started storming really bad. My dad came and picked me and my bike up in the old pick up truck. What a good daddy πŸ™‚ I was constantly riding to my best friends house and back. I would ride all day and not even get tired.

There were only 2 specific times that I remember crashing on my bike and it was always from going downhill. From then on, I was terrified of going downhill. I was always scared of wrecking. Nothing horrible like broken bones came out of it. Just scraped knees and hands. As a kid, it was pretty awful, but I guess never scared me enough to start wearing a helmet or knee pads.

As an adult now, I ride for pleasure and exercise. (I still don’t wear a helmet, just sayin) When I ride now, I feel it in all my muscle the next day, even my arms. Meaning that I am way out of shape, but getting into shape. I finally got a road bike for the first time a couple of years ago, after I had my first child. It helped me lose a lot of my weight. The last time I remember riding, I rode 10 miles. It was one of the greatest riding experiences that I learned, but I was wore out in the middle of my ride, which wasn’t good because I had to turn around and go home.

Here’s my need to know list when you decide to start riding

  1. Check tires and brakes – There isn’t anything worse than being in the middle of your ride and find out that you have a flat tire or your going down a hill and your brakes aren’t as good as you hoped.
  2. Take a squirt bottle of water – Riding on hot days can be very tiring, and if you aren’t riding on trails where there are rest stops, you could get very dehydrated. Reason for the squirt bottle? You need both hands to ride and when you have a squirt bottle, you can still use one had to steer and steady and one hand to get your bottle, use your mouth to open the spout and drink. Just common sense, I think :/
  3. Watch out for rocks – When riding a mountain bike, this one isn’t as important because of the way the tires are designed. Road bikes on the other hand, they have skinny wheel and riding over even small rocks is not advised. I ran over one the other day and just about lost my balance. Could have been a reason to get a helmet, but nah πŸ™‚
  4. Ride with traffic, not against it – You are technically on something sort of moving vehicle so it’s just law.
  5. Be courteous to drivers – I’ve been on both end of this one. I have been behind bike riders and scared to pass because I might hit them. That’s when you end up with a line of cars behind you, and those people are usually pretty impatient. You may not be able to stop, but try to get over as far to side as you can.
  6. Watch out for falling tree debris – Ok, so you may not be able to WATCH out for this, but if anything hits you in the head, don’t freak out. It’s probably just a tree nut.
  7. Keep your mouth close – Sometimes this one is hard cause you may be so tired and panting like a dog, but trust me, keep your mouth shut. You know when you are driving and bugs splat on your windshield? Well, when riding, you end swallowing those bugs, and that’s really disgusting.
  8. Wear sunglasses, unless riding at night – Same thing as above, but getting them in your eye kind of really hurts and then you can’t see where you are going. Not good.
  9. If you can only ride a mile, ride half way – Now, when you just start out riding and you can only go so far, don’t ride as far as you can go because you do have to turn around a go back. If a mile is all you want to go, ride a half mile and then turn around. That’s 1 mile. Build your milage up. Don’t expect to do the impossible the first time around.
  10. Don’t give up, just keep riding – Who really likes to exercise? I know that unless someone is there motivating me, I don’t do much as far as exercise. I love riding my bike and could do all the time, if I had the time. Don’t get discouraged if it’s too hard at first because the more you do, the better you get and the harder and faster you can ride.

Now get out there and enjoy this beautiful weather! Play with your kids. Stay active. Eat healthy. Be the awesome person that you already are!

When I Get Old…er

Sometimes, I get to thinking about when I get older, where will I be? Who will I know? Will my kids still be close? Will I start going crazy? Am I already headed down the path to crazy? Will my husband and I still be motorcycle riding, adventure taking old people? Will we own a house? Cars? Land? Grandkids? Will we go up in rapture before any of that will actually happen?

There are a lot of things to consider. We rent a house. We pay 2 car loans. Own 2 dirtbikes for actually racing purposes. 3 working bicycles for exercise purposes. We do not have a gym membership. We do not pay any kind of community fees from living in a subdivision. God forbid that we ever have to do that. The country is where we want to be. We will never own a mini van, no matter if we have more kids or not. I love my Cadillac! I make up excuses to leave my house so I can drive it.

I still have both of my parents. This will be the only time in my life that I can say that I am about to be a big sister. Half sister. My dad’s girlfriend is having his baby. Weird? Yes. Completely. It’s an *oh well, let’s move on* situation. I buy my kid’s clothes from Children’s Place and Baby Gap. I’m a little obsessed, but with this whole trying to save for a year to pay off a vehicle, I have to cut back that shopping a bit. My kids love being outside and would live outside if I would let them.

My daughter is cute and she knows it. My son is my bud and laughs every time I just look at him. I call my daughter monster. My son is called Bubby and mostly answers to Bubby. The monster girl does not like being cold. Bubby is hot most of the time. Anyway, you get the drift. Life is pretty great right now. We are waiting to see where the job is going to take us within the next few months. Somewhere South, just not sure where.

All of this moving around doesn’t leave much room for stability. The kids aren’t old enough to be in school yet, so it doesn’t hurt to move right now, but when they start school, things may change. Not sure how though. When I think about our future and where we will be, I honestly can’t see us anywhere yet. I haven’t found that one place that I love to be, and we just have to live there. We have met some great people in our travels, and we have met some not so great people. We have met people that were great in that moment, but very easy to forget in the long run and we have met people that will be our friends forever.

Our goal for our life is to eventually find land, build a house on a small part of that land and then the rest…motocross track! My husband will be riding his dirtbike forever into eternity. At our mansion in Heaven, God had better allow for a track to built for him or he may consider moving πŸ˜‰ His dad still races and he is turning 61 this year. My husband is covered as far as what he wants to do when I grows old, but me? I think I may know what I want to do, but it’s just a matter of where we when that time comes.

I love being creative. I love home decorating and making things pretty. I love cooking and have people enjoy that cooking. I love making people feel comfortable and happy. Someday, I would like to open up my own B&B. Sounds reasonable? I think so. I just have to plan and plan…and oh yeah…make a plan. Pray and believe. I have ambition, but I need to learn the ropes. I never went to college. I got married early in life and still don’t regret it to this day.

I strive to be the parent that my kids can look up to and say to their friends *I want to be like my mom and dad when I grow up* I want to set the bar. I don’t want to be just another statistic. I want to grow up with dignity and be a woman of honor and help my husband be the man he is supposed to be. I am very blessed to be where I am at right now and try not to take anything for granted. I love my husband. I love kids. I love my family. I want to live the standard of Godly parents.

I will mess up. I will fail. I will occasionally yell and then cry because I was too hard. My kids will get mad at me. They will say things to me that will hurt my feelings, but in the end I know that they don’t really mean what they said. I will take things personal. But if none of those things happen, I will never learn. Growing up is hard and life isn’t fair. Just take what you have and cherish it and make the best of what God gives you.